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Memory Issues

 

 I have not yet found myself standing in front of the stove and wondering what it does (though, for lack of use, one might think me rather ignorant of its function). But I have had occasions where I can’t remember a name or the title of a book. It is sometimes embarrassing, especially if you and I are talking about someone whom we’ve both known for years and yours truly keeps trying to recall the name.

    If you are a literate person, this is easier to hide. I remember my wife, Susan, as her brain disease grew, finding it hard to summon up ordinary words. There’s a beloved children’s book called Where the Sidewalk Ends. She was looking for the word “sidewalk,” but instead she said, “You know, where it ends.” I find myself doing similar verbal work-arounds, hoping that the name will return shortly. 

    Sometime in the last year a book was recommended: Why We Forget and How to Remember Better. Its subtitle is “The Science Behind Memory,” and the co-authors, Andrew Budson and Elizabeth Kensinger, are M.D. and Ph.D. respectively. They write with stories and illustrations in an engaging way, while not pretending to greater knowledge than is available. For of course we hardly understand how our brain functions.

    Yet one thing seems clear: Memory is not in just one place in the brain. There are different kinds of memories: pictures, sounds, words, events. There are also different sorts of memory: short-term, procedural, episodic, and semantic, for instance. These seem to be located in different places. What coordinates them all is the “central executive,” which is located in the prefrontal cortex (the frontmost part of the brain).

    I had known of the “executive function” being located there in that Susan’s tumor and subsequent treatments had been in part of it. I had learned that, due to her disease, she lacked the capacity to plan and carry out longer-term tasks. So it fell to me to fill in this lack in her—a humbling task, but no different in principle than when one spouse can no longer drive, so the other has to take care of all the transportation. We are always filling in for one another’s weaknesses.

    Those of us who like words, who write or preach, say, or who like reading blogs (dear reader, I’m looking at you): we tend to over-identify ourselves with our brain. But the truth is that your brain is not your mind or your soul. Your brain is an organ of your body, analogous to your legs or ears. We intellectuals need to remember that from time to time.

    So it is good for my humility and my humanity, I think, for me to have these memory issues. But since I am a stubborn sinner, let me tell you one other thing this book says about the executive function that is located in the prefrontal cortex. This cortex is located “in the frontmost part of the frontal lobe” of the brain. “It is well connected to the rest of the brain, enabling its ‘command and control’ functions. The prefrontal cortex takes up about 33% of the human brain, while making up only 4% of that of the cat, perhaps explaining why humans appear to have a wider repertoire of goal-directed activities than their feline companions.”

    Such a vivid illustration is hard to forget!

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    Out & About: Sunday, October 5, I am to preach at St. James’ Church in Texarkana, where the eucharists are at 8 and 10 a.m. I will also speak between the services on caregiving. If you live in the area, it would be great to meet you.

    On Sunday, October 19, I am to preach at St. Matthew’s Cathedral in Dallas, at 9 and 11:15 a.m., and at 10:20 or so, I will speak about Books I & II of Augustine’s Confessions (about which, more below).

    At 5 p.m. (also on Oct. 19) the Good Books & Good Talk meets to discuss Anthony Trollope’s Dr. Wortle’s School. This is a late treasure from 1891, a short book with a secret (revealed very early in the book) about possible bigamy, the cruelty of society, and the importance of matrimony. It also has many small delights of wit and ironic observation. One thinks that Trollope is the sort of author that only a culture thick with the Prayer Book could produce. Give yourself the pleasure of relishing Trollope.

    The Confessions of Saint Augustine. This book, after the Bible, is likely the most-read book in all of Christian history. Written about A.D. 390, it is, in its first half, Augustine’s recounting his life story to God, which he allows us to overhear. Until about a century ago, every educated person would have read it. Here is your chance to do so also. I will be giving talks on the Confessions this fall: at St. Matthew’s Cathedral, starting Sunday, October 19, at 10:25 (between Sunday services). The first class will cover Books I & II, which you might want to read in advance, but it is okay to attend without reading. (If you are wondering about a translation, I recommend Henry Chadwick’s in the Oxford World Classics series. But there are many and most are more than adequate.) The class will meet about 7 times between Oct. 19 and Dec. 21.

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    On the Web. I had a piece on coarseness of society—and resisting it—with a few thoughts about 1 Kings 12 (Rehoboam’s first words on becoming king after his father Solomon). You can find it here: https://humanlifereview.com/rejecting-public-and-private-coarseness/

A Cassette Tape

    The handwritten label said only “Chant,” and while it was my handwriting I could remember nothing about it. I put it in the tape deck as I drove south from Dallas.
    First were some Gregorian chants. Competing against the background noise of the highway, the words were impossible to understand. But I liked the voices: I guessed they were competent, practiced monks. Later the chanted words became English, from various parts of Evening Prayer from the Episcopal Church’s prayer book, contemporary version. They became, of course, quite easy for me to hear, and the music continued as simple, professional, and homemade as it had been from the start. The supposition formed that I was listening to a a tape from the brothers of the Society of St. John the Evangelist, our monastic community in Massachusetts.
    But why had I made this copy? (I used to have tapes of the brothers’ meditations and singing.) Side A ended abruptly—in the middle of a canticle—and Side B turned out to be completely blank. 
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    Then I thought of something I hadn’t brought to mind for a decade. When Susan was in the hospital for the last weeks of her life, she was unresponsive. I visited daily, and many others visited, and we talked to her, but (with only a few exceptions, only towards the end) she made no sounds, no movement with her eyes or otherwise to indicate awareness of what was going on around her. At some point I got the idea that it might help to put music in her room. 
    We know that music can reach into the mind and memories of people. It has been known to “speak” to people who have lost the ability to access words. I was probably also thinking that chant carries prayer even when we can’t get the words. 
    Somewhere, we got a tape player that would run on batteries (the outlets in the room being occupied by the various monitors). I remember putting chant music on for her, to play quietly through the night. 
    All this I had quite forgotten until, last week, that strange “chant” tape playing in my car, it all came back. I think I was listening to a tape I had made about 13 years ago. Like many things, it ends in the middle.
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    Out & About: The incident above happened as I was driving to speak to a men’s group about caregiving. A reminder to folks in the diocese of Dallas: I am available to speak to parish groups; just drop me a line if you’re interested and we can seek a workable time.
    October 5 I am to preach at St. James’ Church in Texarkana. The eucharists are at 8 and 10 a.m. I am also talking between the services on caregiving.
    October 19, Sunday at 5 p.m., the Good Books & Good Talk seminar will discuss Anthony Trollope’s Dr. Wortle’s School. This is a late treasure from 1891, a short book with a secret (revealed very early in the book) about possible bigamy, the cruelty of society, and the importance of matrimony. It also has many small delights—for random instance, the first sentence: “The Rev. Jeffrey Wortle, D.D., was a man much esteemed by others,—and by himself.” I think everyone should have the chance of relishing Trollope’s very English humor—and here is a short book that fits the bill. Enjoy.
    The Confessions of Saint Augustine. This book, after the Bible, is likely the most-read book in all of Christian history. Written about A.D. 390, it is, in its first half, Augustine’s recounting his life story to God, as he allows us to overhear it. Until about a century ago, every educated person would have read it. If you live in Dallas or Oklahoma City, here is your chance. I will be giving talks on the Confessions this fall in Dallas, at St. Matthew’s Cathedral, starting Sunday, October 19, at 10:25 (between Sunday services). The first class will cover Books I & II, which you might want to read in advance, but it is okay to attend without reading. (If you are wondering about a translation, I recommend Henry Chadwick’s in the Oxford World Classics series. But there are many and most are more than adequate.)
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    On the Web: Yours truly is in a podcast. It’s the latest in the series, “That They May All Be One,” from the Pro Ecclesia folks. This conversation is based on our recent thin book, Mixed Blessings. We asked an ecumenical group of scholars to write about a theologian important to them but whose inheritance (like, really, most inheritances) is a mixed blessing. On the podcast, Fritz Bauerschmidt (brother, as it happens, of our bishop of Tennessee) speaks about Thomas Aquinas, and Amy Schifrin about Martin Luther. I am there as the editor, and our host is our executive director, Doug Sweeney. Here’s the link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CHzF4O-TbrQ

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The Rev. Canon Victor Lee Austin. Ph.D., is the Theologian-in-Residence for the diocese and is the author of several books including, "Friendship: The Heart of Being Human" and "A Post-Covid Catechesis.: