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You Are Called: Week 2

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Sunday 16 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

Exodus 3:1-15, 4:10-17

Moses was keeping the flock of his father-in-law Jethro, the priest of Midian; he led his flock beyond the wilderness, and came to Horeb, the mountain of God. There the angel of the Lord appeared to him in a flame of fire out of a bush; he looked, and the bush was blazing, yet it was not consumed. Then Moses said, ‘I must turn aside and look at this great sight, and see why the bush is not burned up.’ When the Lord saw that he had turned aside to see, God called to him out of the bush, ‘Moses, Moses!’ And he said, ‘Here I am.’ Then he said, ‘Come no closer! Remove the sandals from your feet, for the place on which you are standing is holy ground.’ He said further, ‘I am the God of your father, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob.’ And Moses hid his face, for he was afraid to look at God.

Then the Lord said, ‘I have observed the misery of my people who are in Egypt; I have heard their cry on account of their taskmasters. Indeed, I know their sufferings, and I have come down to deliver them from the Egyptians, and to bring them up out of that land to a good and broad land, a land flowing with milk and honey, to the country of the Canaanites, the Hittites, the Amorites, the Perizzites, the Hivites, and the Jebusites. The cry of the Israelites has now come to me; I have also seen how the Egyptians oppress them. So come, I will send you to Pharaoh to bring my people, the Israelites, out of Egypt.’ But Moses said to God, ‘Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh, and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?’ He said, ‘I will be with you; and this shall be the sign for you that it is I who sent you: when you have brought the people out of Egypt, you shall worship God on this mountain.’

But Moses said to God, ‘If I come to the Israelites and say to them, “The God of your ancestors has sent me to you”, and they ask me, “What is his name?” what shall I say to them?’ God said to Moses, ‘I am who I am.’* He said further, ‘Thus you shall say to the Israelites, “I am has sent me to you.” ’ God also said to Moses, ‘Thus you shall say to the Israelites, “The Lord,* the God of your ancestors, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, has sent me to you”:
This is my name for ever, and this my title for all generations. 

But Moses said to the Lord, ‘O my Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor even now that you have spoken to your servant; but I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.’ Then the Lord said to him, ‘Who gives speech to mortals? Who makes them mute or deaf, seeing or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you are to speak.’ But he said, ‘O my Lord, please send someone else.’ Then the anger of the Lord was kindled against Moses and he said, ‘What of your brother Aaron the Levite? I know that he can speak fluently; even now he is coming out to meet you, and when he sees you his heart will be glad. You shall speak to him and put the words in his mouth; and I will be with your mouth and with his mouth, and will teach you what you shall do. He indeed shall speak for you to the people; he shall serve as a mouth for you, and you shall serve as God for him. Take in your hand this staff, with which you shall perform the signs.’

Daily journaling

Facing your fears 

Monday 17 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

Thomas Keating, Open Mind Open Heart

Contemplative prayer is the world in which God can do anything.  To move into that realm is the greatest adventure.  It is to be open to the Infinite and hence to infinite possibilities. Our private, self-made worlds come to an end; a new world appears within and around us and the impossible becomes an everyday experience.  Yet the world that prayer reveals is barely noticeable in the ordinary course of events.

Christian life and growth are founded on faith in our own basic goodness, in the being that God has given us with its transcendent potential.  This gift of being is our true Self.  Through our consent by faith, Christ is born in us and He and our true Self become one. Our awakening to the presence and action of the Spirit is the unfolding of Christ’s resurrection in us.

All true prayer is based on the conviction of the presence of the Spirit in us and of His unfailing and continual inspiration Every prayer in this sense is prayer in the Spirit.  Still, it seems more accurate to reserve the term prayer in the Spirit,for that prayer in which the inspiration of the Spirit is given directly to our spirit without the intermediary of our own reflections or acts of the will.  In other words, the Spirit prays in us and we consent.  The traditional term for this kind of prayer is contemplation.

Contemplative prayeris a process within contemplative life.  The former is an experience or series of experiences leading to the abiding state of union with God.  The term contemplative life is the abiding state of divine union itself, in which one is habitually and continuously moved both in prayer and action by the Spirit.  Centering prayer is an entrance into the process that leads to divine union.

The root of prayer is interior silence.  We may think of prayer as thoughts of feelings expressed in words, but this is only one of its form.  “Prayer,” according to Evagrius, “is the laying aside of thoughts.”  This definition presupposes that there are thoughts.  Centering prayer is not so much the absence of thoughts as detachment from them.  It is the opening of mind and heart, body and emotions—our whole being—to God, the Ultimate Mystery, beyond words, thoughts, and emotions—beyond, in other words, the psychological content of the present moment.  In centering prayer we do not deny or repress what is in our consciousness.  We simply accept the fact of whatever is there and go beyond it, not by effort, but by letting go of whatever is there….

In using this ancient formula it is important to keep in mind that it is not we who do the lifting.  In every kind of prayer the raising of the mind and heart to God can only be the work of the Spirit.  In prayer inspired by the Spirit we let ourselves flow with the lifting movement and drop all reflection.  Reflection is an important preliminary to prayer, but it is not prayer.  Prayer is not only the offering of interior acts to God: it is the offering of ourselves, of who we are just as we are.[1] 

Daily journaling

Offer yourself to God

Tuesday 18 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

Simone Weil, “Reflections on the Right Use of School Studies with a View to the Love of God”

Simone Weil (1909-1943), precociously brilliant, studied and taught philosophy, and then involved in movements for workers’ rights, worked in an auto factory and did farm labor.  When the Germans occupied France, she joined the Resistance and later fled to England.  As a gesture of solidarity with those still in France, she refused to eat more than the minimum ration allowed to them.  She wrote this essay in 1942 for a group of Catholic school children.[2]

The key to a Christian conception of studies is the realization that prayer consists of attention.  It is the orientation of all the attention of which the soul is capable towards God.  The quality of the attention counts for much in the quality of the prayer.  Warmth of heart cannot make up for it. 

Of school exercises only develop a lower kind of attention.  Nevertheless they are extremely effective in increasing the power of attention which will be available at the time of prayer, on condition that they are carried out with a view to this purpose and this purpose alone…

If we concentrate our attention on trying to solve a problem of geometry, and if at the end of an hour we are no nearer to doing so than at the beginning, we have nevertheless been making progress each minute of that hour in another more mysterious dimension.  Without our knowing or feeling it, this apparently barren effort has brought more light into the soul.  The result will one day be discovered in prayer.  Moreover, it may very likely be felt besides in some department of the intelligence in no way connected with mathematics.  Perhaps he who made the unsuccessful effort will one day be able to grasp the beauty of a line of Racine more vividly on account of it. But it is certain that this effort will bear its fruit in prayer.

Students must therefore work without any wish to gain good marks, to pass examinations, to win school successes; without any reference to their natural abilities and tastes; applying themselves equally to all their tasks, with the idea that each one will help to form in them the habit of that attention which is the substance of prayer. 

The second condition is to take great pains to examine squarely and contemplate attentively and slowly each school task in which we have failed seeing how unpleasing and second-rate it is, without seeking any excuse of overlooking any mistake or any of our tutor’s corrections, trying to get down to the origin of each fault.  There is a great temptation to do the opposite, to give a sideways glance at the corrected exercise if it is bad, and to hide it forthwith.   Most of us do this nearly always. 

If these two conditions are perfectly carried out, there is no doubt that school studies are quite as good a road to sanctity as any other.  …It is the part played by joy in our studies that makes of them a preparation for spiritual life, for desire directed towards God is the only power capable of raising the soul.  Or rather, it is God alone who comes down and possesses the soul, but desire along draws God down.  He only comes to those who ask him to come; and he cannot refuse to come to those who implore him long, often and ardently…..Twenty minutes of concentrated, untired attention is infinitely better than three hours of the kind of frowning application which leads us to say with a sense of duty done:  “I have worked well!”

Attention consists of suspending our thought, leaving it detached, empty and ready to be penetrated by the object, it means holding in our minds, within reach of this thought, but on a lower level and not in contact with it, the diverse knowledge we have acquired which we are forced to make use of.  Our thought should be in relation to all particular and already formulated thoughts, as a man on a mountain who, as he looks forward, sees also below him, without actually looking at them, a great many forests and plains.  Above all our thought should be empty, waiting, not seeking anything, but ready to receive in its naked truth the object which is to penetrate it.

We do not obtain the most precious gifts by going in search of them but by waiting for them.  Man cannot discover them by his own powers, and if he sets out to seek for them he will find in their place counterfeits of which he will be unable to discern the falsity.

Our first duty towards school-children and students is to make known this method to them, not only in a general way but in the particular form which bears on each exercise.  It is not only the duty of those who teach them, but also of their spiritual guides.  Moreover, the latter should bring out in a brilliantly clear light the correspondence between the attitude of the intelligence in each one of these exercises and the position of the soul, which, with its lamp well filled with oil, awaits the Bridegroom’s coming with confidence and desire.  May each loving adolescent, as he works at his Latin prose, hope through this prose to come a little nearer to the instant when he will really be the slave—faithfully waiting while the master is absent, watching and listening—ready to open the door to him as soon as he knocks.  The master will then make his slave sit down and himself serve him with meat.[3]

Daily journaling

Joy in studying

Wednesday 19 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

Ignatius Loyola (1491 or 1495-1556), son of a Spanish noble family, pursued the life of a soldier until he was seriously wounded in battle. Forced to reflection during a long convalescence, he turn to a life of severe asceticism and then set about getting an education.  Some fellow students attracted by his passion and insight began the Society of Jesus, or Jesuits.  Parts of Ignatius’s Spiritual Exercises have no more literary elegance than a cookbook, but, particularly when used by a spiritual director to guide a month-long retreat, the Exerciseshave been profoundly influential in shaping many lives.[4]

Ignatius Loyola, The Spiritual Exercises

Introduction to Making a Choice of a Way of Life

In every good choice, in so far as it depends upon us, the direction of our intention should be simple.  I must look only to the end for which I am created, that is, for the praise of God our Lord and for the salvation of my soul. Therefore, whatever I choose must have as its purpose to help me to this end.  I must not shape or draw the end to the means, but the means to the end. Many, for example, first choose marriage, which is a means, and secondarily to serve God our Lord in the married state, which service of God is the end.  Likewise there are others who first desire to have benefices (church offices with a guaranteed income), and afterward to serve God in them.  These individuals do not go straight to God, but want God to come straight to their inordinate attachments.  Acting thus, they make a means of the end, and an end of the means, so that what they ought to seek first, they seek last.  My first aim, then, should be my desire to serve God, which is the end, and after this, to seek a benefice or to marry, if it is more fitting for me, for these things are but means to the end.  Thus, nothing should move me to use such means or to deprive myself of them except it be only the service and praise of God our Lord and the eternal salvation of my soul….. 

Making a wise and good choice contain six points:

The first point:  To place before my mind’s eye the thing on which I wish to make a choice.

The second point:  I must have as my aim the end for which I am created, which is the praise of God our Lord and the salvation of my soul.

The third point:  I must ask God our Lord to deign to move my will and to reveal to my spirit what I should do to best promote His praise and glory in the matter of choice. 

The fourth point:  I will use my reason to weigh the many advantages and benefits that would accrue to me.

The fifth point:  After having thus weighed the matter and carefully examined it from every side I will consider which alternative appears more reasonable.

The sixth point:  After such a choice or decision has been reached I should turn with great diligence to prayer in the presence of God our Lord and offer Him this choice that His Divine Majesty may deign to accept and confirm it if it be to His greater service and praise.[5] 

Daily journaling

For what am I created

Thursday 20 June 2019 

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen. 

Reflection

John Wesley, “Sermon 51:  The Good Steward”

“Give an account of thy stewardship; for thou mayest be no longer steward.” (Luke 16:2)

The relation which man bears to God, the creature to his Creator, is exhibited to us in the oracles of God under various representations.  Considered as a sinner, a fallen creature, he is there represented as a debtor to his Creator.  He is also frequently represented as a servant, which indeed is essential to him as a creature; insomuch that this appellation is given to the Son of God when in his state of humiliation:  He “took upon him the form of a servant, being made in the likeness of men” (Phil. 2:7). 

But no character more exactly agrees with the present state of man than that of a steward.  Our blessed Lord frequently represents him as such; and there is a peculiar propriety in the representation.  It is only in one particular respect, namely, as he is a sinner, that he is styled a debtor and when he is styled a servant, the appellation is general and indeterminate.  But a steward is a servant of a particular kind; such a one as man is in all respects. This appellation is exactly expressive of his situation in the present world; specifying what kind of servant he is to God, and what kind of service his Divine Master expects from him. 

In so many respects are the children of men stewards of the Lord, the Possessor of heaven and earth:  So large a portion of his goods, of various kinds, hath he committed to their charge.  But it is not for ever, no indeed for any considerable time:  We have this trust reposed in us only during the short, uncertain space that we sojourn here below, only so long as we remain on earth, as this fleeting breath is in our nostrils.  The hour is swiftly approaching; it is just at hand, when we “can be no longer stewards” (Luke 16:2)!  The moment the body “returns to the dust as it was, and the spirit to God that gave it” (Eccl. 12:7), we bear that character no more; the time of our stewardship is at an end.  Part of those goods wherewith we were before entrusted are now come to an end; at least, they are so with regard to us; nor are we longer entrusted with them:  And that part which remains can no longer be employed or improved as it was before….

Didst thou employ thy health and strength, not in folly or sin, not in the pleasures which perished in the using, ‘not in making provision for the flesh, to fulfill the desires thereof’ (Rom. 13:14); but in a vigorous pursuit of that better part which none could take away from thee? Didst thou employ whatever was pleasing in thy person or address, whatever advantages thou had by education, whatever share of learning, whatever knowledge of things or men, was committed to thee, for the promoting of virtue in the world, for the enlargement of my kingdom?  Did thou employ whatever share of power thou had, whatever influence over others, by the love or esteem of thee which they had conceived, for the increase of their wisdom and holiness?  Didst thou employ that inestimable talent of time, with wariness and circumspection, as duly weighing the value of every moment, and knowing that all were numbered in eternity?  Above all, wast thou a good steward of my grace, preventing, accompanying, and following thee?  Did thou duly observe and carefully improve all the influences of my Spirit? every good desire? every measure of light? All his sharp or gentle reproofs?  How didst thou profit by ‘the Spirit of bondage and fear,’ which was previous to ‘the Spirit of adoption’ (Rom. 8:15)”  And when thou were made a partaker of this Spirit, crying in thy hear, ‘Abba, Father’ (Rom. 8:15), didst thou stand fast in the glorious liberty wherewith I made thee free?  Did thou from thenceforth present thy soul and body, all thy thoughts, thy words, and actions, in one flame of love, as a holy sacrifice, glorify me with thy body and thy spirit?  Then ‘well done, good and faithful servant!  Enter thou into the joy of thy Lord’ (Matt. 25:21)!”[6] 

Daily journaling

A good steward

Friday 21 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

Gordon T. Smith; The Voice of Jesus, Discernment, Prayer and the Witness of the Spirit

Taking responsibility for our choices and decisions is a part of becoming an adult and maturing in our faith.  As noted, we are not alone, so when in our choosing we seek to be attentive to the Spirit, we are not escaping from the world or evading the act of choosing.  Rather, recognizing our capacity to choose poorly, and longing to choose not only the good but the best, we approach our decision making with a posture of discernment. We seek to make our choices in a way that is informed by our personal encounter with Christ and the inner witness of the Spirit to our hearts.  And what we find is that where the Spirit is, there is freedom, and thus choices and decisions lie before us not as burdens but as challenges and opportunities to grow in faith, hope and love.  We can act with courage, grace and generosity. 

The grace we seek is to discern and embrace the life to which we are called by God, to act with integrity, to see and appreciate how God is active in our world.  Moreover, what we seek is not just awareness of the general way in which God is at work in the world but the specific way in which God is calling us to act. God’s call on our lives is specific and unique.  There is no set formula for our lives.  Rather, as women and men in Christian community who live in active engagement with the Scriptures, we seek the best for our lives, particularly in the choices we make. 

God is fully present to us in our times of decision, but we will learn to appropriate this reality and respond to the inner witness in times of choice only if we learn, in turn, to be present to God. And this requires that we be intentional, not impulsive.  We can learn not to trust the moment or what feels good or right but rather approach our decisions with thoughtfulness.  Good decision making is the fruit of a choice that is well considered.

Wise Christians are not impressed by the common notion that spontaneity is more life giving, more fun or a great reflection of the presence of the Spirit in our lives.  To the contrary, they recognize that the Spirit is very much present to us, but that we cannot trust the impulses of our hearts.  We cannot trust spontaneity but must be discerning.[7] 

Daily journaling

Choosing well 

Saturday 22 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection
  1. I. Packer, “Finding God’s Will”

Even with right ideas about guidance in general, however, it is still easy to go wrong, particularly in vocational choices. No area of life bears clearer witness to the frailty of human nature, even regenerate human nature.  The work of God in these cases is to incline first our judgment and then our whole being to the course that, of all the competing alternatives, he has marked out as best suited for us, for his glory and for the good of others through us.  But the Spirit can be quenched, and we can all too easily behave in a way that prevents this guidance from getting through.  It is worth listing some of the main pitfalls.

First, unwillingness to think.  It is false piety, supernaturalism of an unhealthy and pernicious sort, that demands inward impressions that have no rational base and declines to heed the constant biblical summons to consider. God made us thinking beings, and he guides our minds so that in his presence we think things out—no guidance otherwise!  “O that they were wise…that they would consider“(Deut 32:29KJV).

Second, unwillingness to think aheadand weigh the long-term consequences of alternative courses of action.  “Think ahead” is part of the divine rule of life no less than of the human rule of the road.  Often we can only see what is wise and right (and what is foolish and wrong) as we dwell on long-term consequences.  “O that they were wise ..that they would consider their latter end.”

Third, unwillingness to take advice.  Scripture is emphatic on the need for this.  “The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, but a wise man listens to advice” (Prov 12:15).  It is a sign of conceit and immaturity to ignore advice in major decisions.  There are always people who know the Bible, human nature, and our own gift and limitations better than we do.  Even if we cannot finally accept their advice, only good will come to us from carefully weighing what they say.

Fourth, unwillingness to suspect oneself.  We dislike being realistic with ourselves, and we do not know ourselves at all well; we can recognize rationalizations in others and quite overlook them in ourselves. States of feeling that have an ego-boosting, escapist, self-indulging or self-aggrandizing base must be detected and discredited, not mistaken for guidance…..

Fifth, unwillingness to discount personal magnetism.   Those who have not been made deeply aware of pride and self-deception in themselves cannot always detect these things in others.  This has from time to time made it possible for well-meaning but deluded people with a flair for self-dramatization to gain an alarming domination over the minds and consciences of others…They and their views must be respected but may not be idolized.  “But test everything; hold fast what is good” (1 Thess 5:21).

Sixth, unwillingness to wait.  “Wait on the Lord” is a constant refrain in the Psalms.  It is a necessary word, for God often keeps us waiting.  He is not in such a hurry as we are, and it is not his way to give more light on the future than we need for action in the present or to guide us more than one step at a time.  When in doubt, do nothing, but continue to wait on God.  When action is needed, light will come.[8]

Daily journaling

Sound judgment

[1]Thomas Keating, Open Mind, Open Heart (New York: Continuum International Publishing Group, 1986), pp. 11-12.

[2]William C. Placher, Callings, Twenty Centuries of Christian Wisdom on Vocation (Grand Rapids, Michigan:  Wm. B. Erdmans Publishing Co., 2005), p. 400.

[3]Simone Weil, Waiting on God, trans. Emma Gruafurd (London: Routledge and Kegan Paul, 1951), 51-57.

[4]William C. Placher, Callings, Twenty Centuries of Christian Wisdom on Vocation (Grand Rapids, Michigan:  Wm. B. Erdmans Publishing Co., 2005), p. 239.

[5]The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius, trans. Anthony Mottola (Garden City, N.Y.: Image Books, 1964), 82-87.

[6]John Wesley, “Sermon 51,” in The Works of John Wesley(Grand Rapids:  Baker, 2002), 4:136-37, 139-140,147.

[7]Gordon T. Smith, The Voice of Jesus; Discernment, Prayer and the Witness of the Spirit (Downers Grove, IL:  Intervarsity Press, 2003), pp. 132-134.

[8]J. I. Packer, “Finding God’s Will” (Downers Grove, IL:  InterVarsity Press, 1985), p. 17-22.

The Rev. Dr. James Detrich: Reflections on Spiritual Autobiography

During my discernment for the priesthood, I met with my Parish Committee on Vocations.  In my experience, the folks at my parish came prepared and they asked me good questions.  They included my wife in one of those meetings, which I believe is essential.  They asked me to write a biography of who I was as a person—and that began a very vital part of the process for me.  That part is simple:  who are you? What I’ve seen in ministry is that if you don’t know who you are—how God has formed and shaped you—what strengths and weaknesses you have—I don’t think you can be terribly effective as a leader. Knowing often provides confidence. And it can help you shape the decisions you make (i.e., hiring staff/recruiting volunteers who provide strengths that you simple cannot).  My only suggestion would be that perhaps more of that could be part of the process. How can parishes more effectively emphasize the importance of knowing yourself and what kind of exercises can an aspirant do to maybe help with that process?  Knowing yourself and discerning a call, it seems to me, come together as they feed off one another. 

You Are Called: Week One

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Sunday 9 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

The Cloud of Unknowing is an anonymous work of Christian mysticism written in Middle English in the latter half of the 14th century. The text is a spiritual guide on contemplative prayer in the late Middle Ages. The book counsels a young student to seek God, not through knowledge of the mind, but through intense contemplation, motivated by love, and stripped of all thought.

Anonymous, The Cloud of Unknowing, Chapter 3

How the work of contemplation shall be done; of its excellence over all other works. 

This is what you are to do:  lift your heart up to the Lord, with a gentle stirring of love desiring him for his own sake and not for his gifts.  Center all your attention and desire on him and let this be the sole concern of your mind and heart.  Do all in your power to forget everything else, keeping your thoughts and desires free from involvement with any of God’s creatures or their affairs whether in general or in particular.  Perhaps this will seem like an irresponsible attitude, but I tell you, let them all be; pay no attention to them.

What I am describing here is the contemplative work of the spirit.  It is this which gives God the greatest delight.  For when you fix your love on him, forgetting all else, the saints and angels rejoice and hasten to assist you in every way—though the devils will rage and ceaselessly conspire to thwart you.  Your fellow men are marvelously enriched by this work of yours, even if you may not fully understand how; the souls in purgatory are touched, for their suffering is eased by the effects of this work; and, of course, your own spirit is purified and strengthened by this contemplative work more than by all others put together.  Yet for all this, when God’s grace arouses you to enthusiasm, it becomes the lightest sort of work there is and one most willingly done. Without his grace, however, it is very difficult and almost, I should say, quite beyond you. 

And so diligently persevere until you feel joy in it.  For in the beginning it is usual to feel nothing but a kind of darkness about your mind, or as it were, a cloud of unknowing.  You will seem to know nothing and to feel nothing except a naked intent toward God in the depths of your being.  Try as you might, this darkness and this cloud will remain between you and your God. You will feel frustrated, for your mind will be unable to grasp him, and your heart will not relish the delight of his love.  But learn to be at home in this darkness.  Return to it as often as you can, letting your spirit cry out to him whom you love. For if, in this life, you hope to feel and see God as he is in himself it must be within this darkness and this cloud. But is you strive to fix your love on him forgetting all else, which is the work of contemplation I have urged you to begin, I am confident that God in his goodness will bring you to a deep experience of himself. 

Daily journaling

Center your thoughts on God.

Monday 10 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen 

Reflection

The expansion of factories and industry in the nineteenth century created a class of wealthy owners, a class of industrial workers, and a host of new social problems.  Socialists proposed that the state should take over the factories from private ownership.  In this official papal statement, Leo XIII (1810-1903, pope from 1878 until his death) sought a middle ground, recognizing the oppression workers could suffer but rejecting the abolition of private property as a solution.  In the Catholic tradition, Leo thinks of a job primarily as a way to support one’s family, not as a calling in itself.  “Rerum Novarum” (“New things”) is conservative on issues of the father’s place in the family, but it was and is radical on issues of labor and capital.[1] 

Pope Leo XIII, “Rerum Novarum,” The Papal Encyclicals 1878-1903

But the Church, with Jesus Christ as her Master and Guide, aims higher still.  She lays down precepts yet more perfect, and tries to bind class to class in friendliness and good feeling.  The things of earth cannot be understood or valued aright without taking into consideration the life to come, the life that will know no death.  Exclude the idea of futurity, and forthwith the very notion of what is good and right would perish; nay, the whole scheme of the universe would become a dark and unfathomable mystery.  The great truth which we learn from nature herself is also the grand Christian dogma on which religion rests as on its foundation—that, when we have given up this present life, then shall we really begin to live.  God has not created us for the perishable and transitory things of earth, but for things heavenly and everlasting; He has given us this world as a place of exile, and not as our abiding place.  As for riches and the other things which men call good and desirable, whether we have them in abundance, or are lacking in them—so far as eternal happiness is concerned—it makes no difference; the only important thing is to use them aright.  Jesus Christ, when He redeemed us with plentiful redemption, took not away the pains and sorrows which in such large proportion are woven together in the web of our mortal life.  He transformed them into motives of virtue and occasions of merit; and no man can hope for eternal reward unless he follow in the blood-stained footprints of his Savior. “If we suffer with Him, we shall also reign with Him” (Rom. 8:17).  Christ’s labors and sufferings, accepted of His own free will, have marvelously sweetened all suffering and all labor.  And not only by His example, but by His grace and by the hope held forth of everlasting recompense, has He made pain and grief more easy to endure; “for that which is at present momentary and light of our tribulation, worketh for us above measure exceedingly an eternal weight of glory” (2 Cor. 4:17).

It rests on the principle that it is one thing to have a right to the possession of money and another to have a right to use money as one wills.  Private ownership, as we have seen, is the natural right of man, and to exercise that right especially as members of society, is not only lawful, but absolutely necessary.  “It is lawful,” says St. Thomas Aquinas, “for a man to hold private property; and it is also necessary for the carrying on of human existence.” But if the question be asked; How must one’s possession be used?—the Church replies without hesitation in the words of the same holy Doctor;  “Man should not consider his material possessions as his own, but as common to all, so as to share them without hesitation when others are in need. Whence the apostle saith, ‘Command the rich of this world….to offer with no stint, to apportion largely’” (1Tim. 6:17-18).  To sum up, then, what has been said;  Whoever has received from the divine bounty a large share of temporal blessings, whether they be external and material, or gifts of the mind, has received them for the purpose of using them for the perfecting of his own nature, and, at the same time, that he may employ them, as the steward of God’s providence, for the benefit of others.

As for those who posses not the gifts of fortune, they are taught by the Church that in God’s sight poverty is no disgrace, and that there is nothing to be ashamed of in earning their bread by labor.  This is enforced by what we see in Christ Himself, who, “whereas He was rich, for our sakes became poor’ (2 Cor. 8:9); and who, being the Son of God, and God Himself, chose to seem and to be considered the son of a carpenter—nay, did not disdain to spend a great part of His life as a carpenter Himself.  “Is not this the carpenter, the son of Mary?” (Mark 6:3)[2]

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The gift of work

Tuesday 11 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

Thomas Merton (1915-1968) grew up, the son of an artist, in France, England, and the United States.  After studying at Columbia University in New York, he was writing poetry and very much living the life of a young bohemian until his conversion to Catholicism in 1938. In 1941, he joined the Trappist monastery at Gethsemani in Kentucky.  Dedicated to a life of silence, the Trappists, an offshoot of the Cistercian order, are perhaps that most rigorous of monastic orders today. Merton’s autobiography, The Seven Storey Mountain, published in 1948, became a best-seller, and he continued to write poems and essays, attacking racism, poverty, and nuclear armament as well as discussing the spiritual life. He died in Bangkok, where he had gone to a meeting between Catholic and Buddhist monks.[3]

Thomas Merton, No Man is an Island

Each one of us has some kind of vocation.  We are all called by God to share in His life and in His Kingdom,  Each one of us is called to a special place in the Kingdom. If we find that place we will be happy. If we do not find it, we can never be completely happy.  For each one of us, there is only one thing necessary:  to fulfill our own destiny, according to God’s will, to be what God wants us to be.

We must not imagine that we discover this destiny only by a game of hide-and-seek with Divine Providence.  Our vocation is not a sphinx’s riddle which we must solve in one guess or else perish. Some people find, in the end, that they have made many wrong guesses and that their paradoxical vocation is to go through life guessing wrong.  It takes them a long time to find out that they are happier that way.

Our vocation is not a supernatural lottery but the interaction of two freedoms, and therefore, of two loves.  It is hopeless to try to settle the problem of vocation outside the context of friendship and of love.  We speak of Providence:  that is a philosophical term.  The Bible speaks of our Father in Heaven.  Providence is, consequently, more than an institution, it is a person. More than a benevolent stranger, He is our Father.  And even the term “Father” is too loose a metaphor to contain all the depths of the mystery:  for He loves us more than we love ourselves, as if we were Himself.  He loves us, moreover, with our own wills, with our own decisions.  How can we understand the mystery of our union with God Who is closer to us than we are to ourselves?  It is His very closeness that makes it difficult for us to think of Him.  He Who is infinitely above us, infinitely different from ourselves, infinitely “other” than we, nevertheless dwells in our souls, watches over every movement of our life with as much love as if we were His own self.  His love is at work bringing good out of all our mistakes and defeating even our sins.

In planning the course of our lives, we must remember the importance and the dignity of our own freedom.  A man who fears to settle his future by a good act of his own free choice does not understand the love of God.  For our freedom is a gift God has given us in order that He may be able to love us more perfectly, and be love by us more perfectly in return.

There is something in the depths of our being that hungers for wholeness and finality. Because we are made for eternal life, we are made for an act that gathers up all the powers and capacities of our being and offers them simultaneously and forever to God.  The blind spiritual instinct that tells us obscurely that our own lives have a particular importance and purpose, and which urges us to find out our vocation, seeks in do doing to bring us to a decision that will dedicate our lives irrevocable to their true purpose.[4]

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God’s gift of freedom  

Wednesday 12 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

Søren Kierkegaard (1813-1855) grew up in a prosperous Danish family and was preparing to get married and studying for ordination as a Lutheran pastor.  But he felt himself called to be a kind of Christian Socrates.  Just as Socrates had challenged Athenians to realize how little they knew, so Kierkegaard challenged Danish Christians to realize how little faith they had.  He faced, he wrote, the particularly difficult task of introducing real Christianity into a country where everyone thought they were already Christians—but they were far too comfortable, they thought faith far too easy.  He wrote a series of books; Fear and Trembling appeared as written by “Johannes de Silentio.”  Johannes admits that he is not a Christian; he lacks faith.  But, reading the story in Genesis 22 of how God called Abraham to sacrifice his son Isaac, Johannes at least recognizes that Abraham’s kind of faith is an amazing thing, far beyond what he can understand.  Faith—a faith that goes beyond resignation in the face of life’s tragedies and may challenge basic ethical principles—may be the highest vocation of all.[5]

Søren Kierkegaard, Fear and Trembling

By faith Abraham emigrated from the land of his fathers and became an alien in the promised land.  He left one thing behind, took one thing along:  he left behind his worldly understanding, and he took along his faith. Otherwise he certainly would not have emigrated but surely would have considered it unreasonable.  By faith he was an alien in the promised land, and there was nothing that reminded him of what he cherished, but everything by its newness tempted his soul to sorrowful longing.  And yet he was God’s chosen one in whom the Lord was well pleased!  As a matter of fact, if he had been an exile, banished from God’s grace, he could have better understood it—but now it was as if he and his faith were being mocked.  There was also in the world one who lived in exile from the native land he loved.  He is not forgotten, nor are his dirges of lamentation when he sorrowfully sought and found what was lost.  There is no dirge by Abraham.  It is human to lament, human to weep with one who weeps, but it is greater to have faith, more blessed to contemplate the man of faith. 

By faith he received the promise that in his seed all the generation of the earth would be blessed.  Time passes, the possibility was there, Abraham had faith; time passed, it became unreasonable, Abraham had faith.  ….We have no dirge of sorrow by Abraham.  As time passed, he did not gloomily count the days; he did not stop the course of the sun so she would not become old and along with her his expectancy; he did not soothingly sing his mournful lay for Sarah.  Abraham became old, Sarah the object of mockery in the land, and yet he was God’s chosen one and heir to the promise that in his seed all the generations of the earth would be blessed.

But Abraham had faith and did not doubt; he believed the preposterous. If Abraham had doubted, then he would have done something else, something great and glorious, for how could Abraham do anything else but what is great and glorious!  He would have gone to Mount Moriah, he would have split the firewood, lit the fire, drawn the knife.  He would have cried out to God, “Reject not this sacrifice; it is notthe best that I have, that I know very well, for what is an old man compared with the child of promise, but it is the best I can give you.  Let Isaac never find this out so that he may take comfort in his youth.” He would have thrust the knife into his own breast.  He would have been admired in the world, and his name would never be forgotten; but it is one thing to be admired and another to become a guiding star that saves the anguished.  [6]

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God provides

Thursday 13 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

Gordon T. Smith, The Voice of Jesus

Spiritual discernment is an intentional way by which we respond with courage and integrity to our world.  Discernment enables us both to see the world more clearly and to respond well to what we see.  We discern our circumstances; we then, in turn, discern the appropriate response.

This discernment includes the capacity to know one’s vocation, or how one is being called, at this time and in this place, to give of one’s energies, whether that is in a career or in volunteer service.  It also involves moral discernment—the capacity to see how one should respond in love and justice to a moral dilemma.  Both have to do with discerning how we act in the world, in response to the call of Christ.  And in both cases we are being called to offer not a vague, general response to God but a specific response to whom we are being called to be at this time and place. 

What this means for the Christian believer is that vocational discernment intersects our lives at regular intervals.  It is not now (if it ever was) a spiritual exercise merely for the young person who is trying to choose a career.  The task of discerning vocation is fundamental for anyone who wishes to live with personal integrity, courage, and authenticity.  We come up against the challenge of vocational discernment again and again and again.  …Nothing is routine other than the reality that at frequent intervals we are challenged with discerning vocation—who am I and to what am I being called?  And when we face these passages, what we long for is to hear the voice of Jesus. 

Further, there is a sense in which part of Christian discipleship is accepting with grace that we each have a cross to bear.  This is not some kind of martyr complex or masochism.  Rather, it is an acknowledgment that in our calling we identify with the suffering of Christ.  The brokenness of the world inevitably impacts our lives, and so our work will, in either an obvious or more subtle way, be a mysterious means by which we identify with Christ and his work (Rom 8:17). 

But though we are called to bear the cross, we are certainly not called to bear each and every cross!  Jesus, in the last moments before his Passion, probably had a keen awareness of the cross he was facing.  Nevertheless there, in the Garden of Gethsemane, he discerned with certainty that he was to accept the horror and humiliation of crucifixion and the abuse of the religious and political leaders of his day.  And in our identification with him, while we may not have a Gethsemane counterpart, our discernment will often include an awareness of the cross that we are, or may be, called to bear.[7] 

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Identifying with Christ’s Passion

Friday 14 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

Francis of Assisi (1181-1226), the son of an Italian merchant, found himself called to a life of radical poverty and service. When others sought to follow him, he obtained the permission of Pope Innocent III to found a new order, eventually called the Franciscans.  Bonaventure (about 1217-1274) joined the Franciscan order less than twenty years after Francis’s death and became one of the great theologians of his time.  His biography of Francis came to be the official account of the saint’s life.[8]

Up to this time, however, Francis was ignorant of God’s plan for him.  He was distracted by the external affairs of his father’s business and drawn down toward earthly things by the corruption of human nature.  As a result, he had not yet learned how to contemplate the things of heaven nor had he acquired a taste for the things of God.  Since affliction can enlighten our spiritual awareness (Isa. 28:19), the hand of the Lord came upon him (Ezek. 1:3) and the right hand of God effected a change in him (Ps. 76:11), God afflicted his body with a prolonged illness in order to prepare his soul for the anointing of the Holy Spirit.  After his strength was restored, when he had dressed as usual in his fine clothes, he met a certain knight who was of noble birth, but poor and badly clothed.  Moved to compassion for his poverty, Francis took off his own garments and clothed the man on the spot.  At one and the same time he fulfilled the two-fold duty of covering over the embarrassment of a noble knight and relieving the poverty of a poor man.

The following night, when he had fallen asleep, God in his goodness showed him a large and splendid palace full of military weapons emblazoned with the insignia of Christ’s cross.  Thus God vividly indicated that the compassion he had exhibited toward the poor knight for love of the supreme King would be repaid with an incomparable reward. And so when Francis asked to whom these belonged, he received an answer from heaven that all these things were for him and his knights.  When he awoke in the morning, he judged the strange vision to be an indication that he would have great prosperity; for he had no experience in interpreting divine mysteries nor did he know how to pass through visible images to grasp the invisible truth beyond.  Therefore, still ignorant of God’s plan, he decided to join a certain count in Apulia, hoping in his service to obtain the glory of knighthood, as his vision seemed to foretell.

He set out on his journey shortly afterwards; but when he had gone as far as the next town, he heard during the night the Lord address him in a familiar way, saying:  “Francis, who can do more for you, a lord or a servant, a rich man or a poor man?” When Francis replied that a lord and a rich man could do more, he was at once asked:  “Why then, are you abandoning the Lord for a servant and the rich God for a poor man?”  And Francis replied:  “Lord, what will you have me do?” (Acts 9:6).  And the Lord answered him:  “Return to your own land (Gen. 32:9), because the vision which you have seen foretells a spiritual outcome which will be accomplished in you not by human but by divine planning.”  In the morning (John 21:4), then, he returned in haste to Assisi, joyous and free of care; already a model of obedience, he awaited the Lord’s will.[9] 

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Waiting for God’s will

Saturday 15 June 2019

Prayer

Most powerful Holy Spirit, come down upon us and subdue us. From heaven, where the ordinary is made glorious, and glory seems but ordinary, bathe us with the brilliance of your light like dew. Amen

Reflection

St. John of the Cross, Juan de Ypes y Alvarez, was born in 1542 of Jewish ancestry, in the town of Fontiveros near Avila, Spain. He died, aged 49, in 1591.  He was ordained a priest in 1567.  Soon after that he met St. Teresa of Avila who persuaded him to join her in the reform of the Carmelites.  ….St. John of the Cross seems to have found his inspiration for his teachings on mystical theology from his own experience.  He knew the Scriptures by heart and was well versed in the teachings of St. Thomas Aquinas.  …He teaches, evidently from his own experience, that the soul must empty itself of itself in order to be filled with God.           

St. John of the Cross, The Dark Night of the Soul

By way of love this dark contemplation infuses into the soul a secret, dark wisdom.  It is called secret and dark because it is not known to the intellect or our other faculties.  This wisdom cannot be fathomed by the intellect or the world or the flesh or the devil since it is given directly by God.  Thus it is protected from them all.  This contemplation, or wisdom of love, communicates an illumination which is ineffable.  The soul cannot adequately express it or describe it or communicate it in any way.

It is beyond the ability of the imaginative faculty to deal with it.  It is so spiritual and intimate to the soul that it transcends everything sensory and even the ability of the exterior and interior senses.  This results in the soul being so elevated and exalted that it sees every created thing as deficient and inadequate in dealing with this divine experience.  The soul has been brought into the realm of mystical theology which is essentially dark and secret to all of its faculties and natural capacity.

This secret wisdom is like a ladder which the soul climbs to get to the treasures of heaven.  Like a ladder it goes up and down, up to God and down to self-humiliation.  According to Proverbs the soul is humbled before it is exalted and it is exalted before it is humbled.  Tempests and trials usually follow prosperity.  Abundance and peace succeed misery and torment. Perfect love of God and contempt of self cannot exist without knowledge of God and knowledge of self.  The former is exultation; the latter is humility. Like a ladder, or step by step, this secret knowledge both illumines and enamors the soul raising it up to God. [10]

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Knowledge of God and self

[1]William C. Placher, Callings, Twenty Centuries of Christian Wisdom on Vocation (Grand Rapids, Michigan:  Wm. B. Erdmans Publishing Co., 2005), pp. 359-360.

[2]Pope Leo XIII, “Rerum Novarum,” The Papal Encyclicals 1878-1903, ed. Claudia Carlen Ihm (Raleigh, N. C.:  McGrath, 1981) 241-47, 251-53.

[3]William C. Placher, Callings, Twenty Centuries of Christian Wisdom on Vocation (Grand Rapids, Michigan:  Wm. B. Erdmans Publishing Co., 2005), p. 421.

[4]Thomas Merton, No Man Is an Island(New York:  Harcourt, Brace, and World, 1955), 131-33, 140-48, 152-57.

[5]William C. Placher, Callings, Twenty Centuries of Christian Wisdom on Vocation (Grand Rapids, Michigan:  Wm. B. Erdmans Publishing Co., 2005),  p. 333.

[6]Søren Kierkegaard, Fear and Trembling, trans. Howard V. Hong and Edna H. Hong (Princeton: Princeton University Press, 1983), 17-21, 28-30, 32-33, 37-41.

[7]Gordon T. Smith, The Voice of Jesus; Discernment, Prayer and the Witness of the Spirit (Downers Grove, IL:  Intervarsity Press, 2003), pp. 183, 185, 186. 

[8]William C. Placher, Callings, Twenty Centuries of Christian Wisdom on Vocation (Grand Rapids, Michigan:  Wm. B. Erdmans Publishing Co., 2005),  p. 143.

[9]Bonaventure, The Life of St. Francis, trans. Ewert Cousins (Mahwah, N.J.:  Paulist, 1978), 186-88.

[10]William Meninger, OCSO; St. John of the Cross (New York:  Lantern Books, 2014), pp. 185-187.

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The Commission on Ministry offers this six-week program to help participants discern their call to serve God's Kingdom. Each week includes a theme, and each day offers a prayer, reflection, and journal entry assignment to aid vocation discernment for laity. The program's principal book is Gordon Smith's, "Consider Your Calling, Six Questions for Discerning Your Vocation."